Poem : FRIEND

patience what get us here

hope what brings us together

endless friendship what I seek

imperfection is what every friendship has

our laughters  ain't gonna be there forever

as sorrow will come visiting once in awhile

negative feelings filling the moment

frustration leading the way

anger, jealousy and unfairness are the devils,

causing this unfortunate event 

so long my dear friend

hope this isn't the end



written by me :)

Burrito / Tortilla

Today evening I wanted to cook something new for my family.. so I searched some recipes on internet where I can easily find the ingredients in my kitchen.. so here it is.. I made burritos / tortilla with the help of my sister.. yup.. with few ingredients I managed to find.

so here's the result...

although it looks not much but alhamdulillah it tasted quite yummy:)

Dear Bloggers / Viewers

Assalamualaikum & Hi readers~

Thank you for reading my blog. Thank you for spending your quality time to feel what I felt and experience what I experienced.

I know some of you who read my blog.. some of you revealed yourself the other day.. and I am thank you for that.. I really appreciate all your comments. Thank you :) 

... and some of those who I may not know you yet... "silent reader". I thank you also for reading my blog.. although my blog is not much, here I am free to write everything I want.

so thank you for all of you guys.. I really am... :)

Unrequited Dream

I had a dream to become a successful Law graduate with honour, by studying in UK. Specifically in Glasgow University (Scotland). because Brunei Darussalam only accept certain "Law Study", i.e in Glasgow University.

Studying Law is not only the reason why I choose Glasgow University. There are other reasons also....

Adam Smith was one of the person I respect most since he is the founder of Economics. (My favorite subject in 6th form). and he studied in University of Glasgow when he was 14 years old. Imagine that!.

Glasgow University is located in SCOTLAND! my fav country where their talking accents are hot and sexy.. but I couldn't understand single words they're saying.. so if they're gonna talk to me I'm just gonna 'nod and smile' repeatedly lol.

Their normal temperature is 7'c ! That means I'm gonna wear their cold jackets, sleeves and everything and I can wear boots I didn't get to wear in Brunei and also more public holidaysss if the snow is heavy and blocking the road yippeee!, 

3 hours from London via train a.k.a less expensive to shop!

Do you know Hogwarts from Harry Potter? Yes of course you do! then do you know Glasgow University is actually a Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry? The school location was in Glasgow University!

I want to see The Loch Ness Monster in Scotland.

Gaargh! I'm gonna say no more. I had enough. I need to bury this dream deep deep down.. somewhere really deep. because one thing for sure is I ain't going there! I'm here and I'm continuing my everyday life without looking back anymore. so stop it Zee! it is an unrequited dream.

The song below is truly what I feel.. just read this lyric or watch the video from the link below. . . . 

This song was a reflection from me, myself.. my dream.. my unrequited dream :'(

CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE VIDEO

Song : I Dreamed A Dream

Singer : Susan Boyle

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I prayed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
And they turn your dreams to shame

Still I dream he'd come to me
And we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

3rd Semester's Assignments!

My semester is almost over and I haven't finished any single assignments yet! GREAT! sooo Great!!

I want to feel free like in a holiday where I don't have to think about school, assignments, presentations and examinations!

THAT CAN WAIT! DECEMBER! I'll be counting from now on.

list of assignments : -

- HAFAZAN AL-QURAN
- MICRO FIQH
- ALAT BANTU MENGAJAR UGAMA
- MICRO JAWI
- METOD PENGAJARAN JAWI
- HAJI, UMRAH & ISU SEMASA
- QAWAID FIQHIYYAH
- MUNYAH AL-MUSALLI
- MAKARIM AL-AKHLAK

Romantic Zombie Movie

I watched this zombie movie recently.. and it was weird! like really2 weird! I mean come on! zombie movies are supposed to be terrifying! horror! and scare the hell out of us! not about romance! and changing their zombie form to human back!..

so this is just ridiculous.. when some zombies have been stabbed multiple times, never sleep and eat raw human parts are able to change back to be a human because he falls in love? like come on!!! for real??! you know how impossible it was! ha-ha so funny.

but hey! even being a zombie itself is impossible! haha there's no such thing as zombie in this world and those kind of creature does not exist! this is just a fantasy to satisfy the audience like me lol... so fair enough~ when they created a new version of zombie falling in love with human :)

anyway... the zombie in that movie is hawt! lol. I never thought a zombie could be this hawt! haha.

The Pursuit Of Happyness

The name of the movie seems incorrectly spelled. Yeah it was meant to be incorrectly spelled. You should see the movie! The movie was portrayed by Will Smith and his son Jaden Smith.

That movie is based on true life story of Chris Gardner. He is a black man and homeless for almost a year with a small kid(son). This movie really is goood! I mean it... really - really good for everyone who wants to pursuit their happiness. I cried out loud watching it... It was so breathtaking, so insecure and so deep!

I admit it.. I cried watching that movie... I don't even know how real life Chris Gardner did it. I could never imagine how it feels like if I were in his shoes. If it were happened to me.. I guarantee I would never survive.. na-ah! so Alhamdulillah.. I am Bruneian living in a peaceful community and peaceful home :')

Click THIS to see the trailer of this movie.

This is the real Chris Gardner

while this is the picture of Chris Gardner who was portrayed by Will Smith with the real Chris Gardner.

I am telling you! Chris Gardner is LEGEND-wait for it-DARY haha.. I mean how often do you see a person became successful like him in this world?..

Dandan Setia

I am watching 'Dandan Setia the movie' right now. This movie was once my favorite movies before... so I think.. I might watch it again to fill my boredom tonight since it is FREE & AVAILABLE on youtube so why not I watch it :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fH0y1Qh7wpk

TEST : Metod Pengajaran Fiqh

okaaay~ so tomorrow I have test on MPF and I'm still on my laptop surfing internet... so GOOD LUCK tomorrow Zee on your test.....

TEST : Haji, Umrah & Isu Semasa

Earlier this morning we had a test. Alhamdulillah I was able to answer all questions.. I wrote all my answers in Nasakh Jawi lol... I don't know if my technique was right or wrong... all i know is I did my best in answering that test and writing in Nasakh Jawi :)

I am Legend

I found this movie by accident when I was bored this evening n randomly clicking videos on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8FtfDPv-9Ek

This movie as my comment..

So terrifying! breathtaking! and scaring the hell out of me! I couldn't even watch till the end. Because he was facing too much losses already and I could never watch another loss again. I only capable of watching half of this movie.. I already have goosebumps... I couldn't take it anymore.. afraid I'll have nightmares.

Will Smith is sooo an A+ Actor!! He managed to act perfectly as a lone survivor on earth!

I am Legend's synopsis :)

Robert Neville is a scientist who was unable to stop the spread of the terrible virus that was incurable and man-made. Immune, Neville is now the last human survivor in what is left of New York City and perhaps the world. For three years, Neville has faithfully sent out daily radio messages, desperate to find any other survivors who might be out there. But he is not alone. Mutant victims of the plague -- The Infected -- lurk in the shadows... watching Neville's every move... waiting for him to make a fatal mistake. Perhaps mankind's last, best hope, Neville is driven by only one remaining mission: to find a way to reverse the effects of the virus using his own immune blood. But he knows he is outnumbered... and quickly running out of time.

It is the year 2012. In the ruins of New York city. Robert Neville who is a military scientist who is the lone survivor of a biochemical disease which was supposed to cure cancer 3 years previous. With only blood thirsty zombies as his neighbors and his trusty dog, Samantha, Robert is trying to discover a cure for this disease and to find out any other people who might have also survived.

Awesome Upcoming Movie Trailers

The upcoming movies I want to watch!!!! haha I love the previous movies so I will definitely love the sequels :)

1. CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jw6dECrl-BE

2. INSIDIOUS 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBbi4NeebAk

My Favorite TV Series When I Was A Kid

Typical kids in my surroundings and neighbourhood would watch Dragon Balls, Sailormoon, Ultraman, Detective Conan, Shin-Chan or any Japanese and English Cartoons. I know nothing about them except for Doraemon and Ultraman. lol. It was not because back them I was anti-social or something... It was because most of them were aired in TV2 or TV1 but my TV only has TV3 and RTB channel lol..

TV3 back then always aired many awesome series... I would never want to miss even a glimpse of those shows.. haha so funny.. but yeah.. there were always technical problem appeared such as blurry channel especially during raining and shows before 10pm.

these are some of my favorite series when I was a kid. listed not in order. enjoy :)

1. SIR ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE : THE LOST WORLD

Best tv show ever! with new adventures and obstacles in discovering the jungle and finding the way back to their world in every new episodes that would catch your breath awaay~~

2. THE BEASTMASTER

The plot is similar to The Lost World but here in beastmaster there are more magic, witches and myth animals..

3. RIPLEY'S BELIEVE IT OR NOT

Oh yeah! this show is sooo interesting. I think this show is still running up until now. This show is creepily-awesome! because they revealed the most insane or the most shocking truth to the world. believe it or not!

ps: to be continued :)

Video

Must watch this video. It contains a very meaningful advice to us people not to forget the purpose of our lives :')

”Hendaklah kamu tolong menolong dalam kebaikan dan ketaqwaan, dan janganlah saling membantu dalam perbuatan dosa dan permusuhan. Dan bertaqwalah kepada Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah amat keras dalam hukuman-Nya.”

(Surah Al-Maidah : 2)

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=1439519962939897&set=vb.313150198785409&type=2&theater

BeastMaster

For the past few months I have been crushing my head in wanting to find what is the TV show called. I don't know where to look and find in internet..

I checked google countless time.. checking about the guy like a tarzan, who can see through the eyes of animals and has this kind of spear with words on it. then tonight! Alhamdulillah.. someone from 'wikianswer' helped me find the answer that I have been looking for... the name of the show is called 'BEASTMASTER'

http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_show_that_is_sort_of_like_Tarzan_but_the_guy_can_see_through_the_eyes_of_animals..._please_help_this_is_driving_me_crazy#

Finding the name of the TV series I once like and forgotten was not easy. It drives me crazy! lol...

BeastMaster was my favorite series when I was a child. Some kids might watch Pokemon, Sailormoon, Dragon Ball or anything.. but me... I watch this type action/fantasy series on TV3 alone in the living room at night.

haha.. I know I was crazy looking for something.. but it drives me insane because I can't remember the name. You guys must know how it feels right.. remembering something that you know but don't remember. It drives you crazzzeey.

Sad / Heartbreaking Movies

Sad movies really do make your heart throb. One of the good things that these type of movies did to you are..letting you express your inner feelings and show your humanity and soft spot towards some things~. That is why.. I sometimes love to watch these films.

It doesn't mean who did not cry or feel touched while watching those movies don't have feelings...,, maybe because they might not be able to pay attention to the movies due to some reason or simply.. the plot just did not 'WOW' them.

Here is FEW of the list of my tears-dropping favorite sad movies :')

Poem : THE VOICE

Step by step I walk to my room

To get away from that voice

A voice that makes my heart races, hands trembling and eyes soaking

In my room - thick wall

I could still hearing her voice in my head

repeating over and over

My heart hurts

My head feels heavy

Did someone stab my heart with poison knife?

Did I drank a poison chalice?

Oh no! I didn’t

Otherwise I could be dead by now

It’s a disturbing voice that keeps on haunting my head

It hurts like crazy

written by me :)

ALLOWANCE

Alhamdulillah! Our allowance finally is out! when I'm nearly in desperate of money lol! well not that desperate.. just desperate on wasting money on something useless =_=' 

No lah~~~~ i'm just JK!.. I need to pay fuels, and send my car to workshop cos I think.. there is something wrong with my car lately.. it does make sounds whenever I push the 'break pedal' on slower decceleration.

fly away my money~~ go fly~~ let yourself go & find new owners =_= BLAAAAHH!

Date to remember = 12/9/2013 is the day our allowance came out. I need to remember this day.. the next time our allowance's out.

Person Who Inspires Me

In my life, There are some people who inspired me most of the time. They are the ones who does good deeds and did something really meaningful in their lives that touches my heart in some ways and because of them I feel I'm special :)

Here they are~

1. HELEN KELLER

She was deaf and blind from child because of fever or something... but she strive from being a nobody to a person that everyone can make as a motivator to never give up on your life.

2. OPRAH WINFREY

Okay so who doesn't know who Oprah Winfrey is.. seriously if you don't know~ I'm telling youh.. u r living under the rock ahaa! lol. She helps the unfortunate and make them as a lessons for us to remember and be cautious. She herself was raped and because of that she became a spokesperson.

3. LIZ MURRAY

Her story really makes my tears dropping non-stop. She was homeless but then with great hardships she was accepted in Harvard University with full scholarship.

ps:// to be continued because I'm sleepy. so next time~ :)  

Metod Pengajaran Jawi (MPJ)

MPJ is one of my courses in KUPU SB that must be taken for my 3rd semester here. This subject teaches us 'the-future-teacher' to know and able to write Jawi words correctly with its technic.

Although it sounds at first to be simple but it is hard actually to change the style of your writing with the new technic after 21 years of living... lol..

Alhamdulillah... I have just finished doing my homework on MPJ. The Ustaz told us to write an essay for 100-150 words with correct technic.. so I am hoping Ustaz will give some credit for my work. AMIN! :)

This is my work! so I'm just praying that Ustaz will accept my work done.. hmm~

My Favorite TV Show

I'm not gonna put my fav movies or series in the profile.. so I'm just gonna say it here in my post.. the list here is not in order.. I'll just write what popped out of my mind.. so here is the list of my favorite Series so far.. enjoy :)

1. GREY'S ANATOMY

What I love about this show is that... all of the Doctors here are brilliant! clever! and they don't care what everybody thinks or says as long as they get to perform surgery on people. the more complicated the surgery is the more they like it! that's the spirit I want in my life.

2. HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER

Their friendship...! How they love and care for their friends more than they care about themselves. I want this type of friendship. Whoever has this kind of friendship with her friends is the luckiest person alive!

3. THE VAMPIRE DIARIES

It's all about ETERNAL LOVE baby lol! protecting their love ones even though they had to sacrifice themselves just to save their love ones..

4. GHOST WHISPERER

Imagine that you have an ability to see dead people~ OMG!! So creepy and if I had that chance... I would get heart attack! but Melinda Gordon not only didn't have heart attack but she also live a peaceful life with her family and an amazing best friends and a shop! and not only that but with her ability.. she helps the dead people to find the 'lights'. GOSH! she's an angel sent from heaven to earth lol.

5. REVENGE

She ain't innocent! so you better watch out cause she ain't gonna let you go if you hurt her feelings! spicy and hot! lol.

these are only some of my list.. I'm gonna update the rest of them next time... :)

Romantic Malay Novels

I want to buy this novel !

Even though I'm not a fan of malay romantic novels but the story lines of this novel has captured my heart (I read until chapter 24 only). The author really knows how to please the readers. I cannot wait to buy this novel when it is released in Brunei.

Dear Ren~

Hai Ren! If you read this. I know you're reading my blog secretly hahaha

Doa Selamat

later at 4pm, I'm gonna attend my bestfriend's Doa Selamat at her house. She's off to Malaysia to study at UPM as an exchange student for 1 year. I'm gonna miss her~~I hope we'll be in touched and our friendship won't be strained.

AMIN!

PRESENTATIONS!

LIST OF MY PRESENTATIONS :-


SIAM, ZAKAT & ISU SEMASA - "Zakat Emas & Perak" 2nd presenter partnered with Rasidah


HAJI, UMRAH & ISU SEMASA - "Analysing Haji Sunat" 6th presenter


METOD PENGAJARAN FIQH - 'Free topics and I haven't choose one' 15th presenter



Alhamdulillah, I have finished 2 of my presentations above and I feel relieved. nothing to worry about anymore.. except for M.P.F ofcourse. The toughest presentation ever in KUPU :'(

I'm Hungry

he's sooo cute! eating like a baby lol

I'm so freaking hungry right now after watching English Series 'How I Met Your Mother' when there was a scene Barney eating Burger with some fries.

I wanna eat Burger tooo! How I wish I could buy burger at Ayamku / KFC now~~ but I couldn't.. because it is raining heavily here and I'm in pyjama already.. so.. I'm just gonna hold it in until tomorrow :/

loookss sooo delicious